Crucible

It has been
A hellfire and brimstone kind of day.

Reading, reading, reading
Researching.
Seeking.
Wrestling with You,
Mostly to my own chagrin.

Am I putting my salvation on the line?
Am I putting someone else's also?

Are You allowing me to be tested?
And what if I fail miserably?

Lord,
Have mercy on me, a sinner.
Do not look at me and see me.
Rather, see Your Son
Who lived the life I could not live
And died the death I justly deserve...